Change

Change is scary y’all.

This last year has proved that change can be terrifying. Our family has faced a long of changes in the last 24 months or so and with it have come a lot of growing pains. A LOT.

But those changes have also given us a lot of insight into what our family needs, how our family thrives, and what can make our family successful. And with that came the realization that something else needs to change. A few big things, actually.

Those upcoming changes are what are most terrifying.

And I know that this is cryptic, but it has to be because pertinent people don’t know yet.

But here’s the deal, I get anxious about change. Actually, I get anxious about a lot of things. But change is a big one.

I start panicking when I know a big change is about to happen, because my natural thought process is to search for all the “what-ifs” and a lot of the time, that spins me right into a depression because I can’t control them or see ahead and know them.

I’m probably not alone in that, but it often feels lonely because my husband is the exact opposite. He only really gets excited. While he tries to understand my viewpoint, he often doesn’t fully get it. And that’s okay with me.

Because this time around, when I am facing a huge change, It’s created a desire to lean into God. I have spent more time in prayer, more time reading my Bible, and more time in the quiet just thinking about the next few months of changes, and it has brought me a sort of peace that truly passed my understanding.

Because I know these big, scary changes are God-called. I have felt them on my heart for a time now, and the circumstances of the last 24 months or so have just allowed my heart to change from stubbornly ignoring that calling, to fully embracing it.

Change is scary, y’all.

But this big scary change is getting more exciting than anxious this time because I’ve invited God into the driver’s seat and I have given up control!

What are you ready to give up for that kind of peace?