Not Another "Mommy Needs Wine" Mom

Alright, here we go. I feel like I never really found my niche here, and maybe that's why I haven't been able to really commit to my writing.

But lately, and really since I started this blog, and even before that when I first became a mom, I felt such a strong calling to NOT fall into the "Mommy Needs Her Wine" group of moms. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy an adult beverage here and again, but it is something I have seen ruin lives... because addition is a real thing. And if I look at my reality logically, alcohol it has the potential to ruin the lives of my family if I allow myself to be too comfortable with it in my house, not because of my own addictions, but because of the addictions I have first hand experience with--but that's a conversation for another day.

Instead of the "Mommy Need Her Wine," mentality, I want to yearn for God, and start (or join!) the revolution of "Mommy Needs Her Bible!" or better yet, "Mommy Needs Jesus!"

I've been so convicted for the last year and a half to transition to stay home with my girls FULL TIME. I have been scared because finances don't add up, and I have a 5 year old who tells me more than twice a month that she hates me. BUT I know that both of those challenges are achievable with God by my side.

My 5 year old doesn't really hate me, and even in those moments of anger, she loves me and doesn't want me to leave her side. And I know that. But the words spewing from her mouth are a heart issue that this "Mommy Needs Jesus" momma needs to address in a loving and biblical way. And how can I do that if I'm yearning more for wine than my time with God?

I was reading Jeremiah today. I was in the second chapter, and I came across verse 32, "Does a young woman forget her jewelry, or a bride her wedding dress? Yet for years on end my people have forgotten me."

Boy, oh, boy, was I convicted!

We don't forget the things that matter to us!

They are the first thing we think to spend out time with!

The things that capture our hearts, capture our time.

God yearns to have intimate relationships with us.

Let me rewrite that. God years to have an imitate relationship with me. He does not just want to be a space on my schedule.

Or on yours.

I want my whole life, and this blog, to reflect the very real work that God is doing in my life. Because no amount of wine, or tv, or crafting, or whatever hobby I enjoy can EVER fill the space in my heart -- in all our hearts -- that yearns for the loving, peace of God.

<3 Becca